11/12/2008 01:34:00 AM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
hmm.. its 2am now. and i guess im able to make a proper entry with the most appropiate feelings and words...
im still heartbroken i must say, its nothing of a big deal actually. im trying my hardest to not think about this anymore, and i probably should stop talking about you, because everytime i tell my friends about you, they get angry and told me to get over it, in pure honesty, its really hard. I bet my bestfriends are sick of me talking about this, but ive yet to hear them scolding me. perhaps thats why they are my bestfriends. They always end up joking about it and we'll all end up laughing.
they are really important to me, we may not meet everyday but still. i love them. the rest are just insignificant.
next, NS is looming around the corner, sometimes, i wonder, what am i goona do after my NS, like where do i go, and stuff. but i guess, i'll be taking up a dip course. make it a point to go through it with decent grades. then take my safety course. and i'll just be contented. somehow, i just know, that i'll make it in life. i just know it.
talking about things to get/do before NS, ive got approximately 3? 4? more months of school to go. i'll be giving my all and then im over and done with it. i pretty much hate school actually. i mean i shouldve really studied for my O's but i guess it a tad too late for that. i'll still look towards the future.
My mum's upset after she learned that i was smoking. i think, before i get really addicted to it, i should stop. not because its bad for health, but because i want to make my mum happy. yes we do argue like all the time. but whatever it is, nothing surpasses my love to her, not even god. honestly i will hate god if He takes her away from me.
Ive just cleaned my room again. and im still drafting my weekly general plan. Its like a weekly-based objectives. like every week, i must have atleast done 100 pushups, 100 sit ups, facial, clean my room twice, and etc. im going to ditch my carefree/lazy life. i want to be more goal oriented and ultimately more organised.
i should stop listening to angry songs, rap/metal music does influence me, they make me an agnry boy. and thats not good. and i guess thats all for me tonight. i guess i'll be having those broken hearted dreams again. sometimes i dont wish to fall asleep, because thats when i always see you, and seeing you, sinks m heart lower, and its already down on the seabed. and it hurts even more that you dont care anymore..
cest la vie,khai. cest la vie
goodnight, tonight.
