Chronicles Of Life

10/24/2008 08:13:00 AM

Friday, October 24, 2008

im at the point of my life, when everyting is so scary.
i realise my heart has sanked so deep it feel so cold.
and im still hurt over my fall. i dont want to stand.
i will wait till somebody nice comes along and pick me up.
sweep me off my feet, and make me feel so fly. :)

till then, im not happy. but satisfied.

Because im lonely and im tired,
im missing you again, oh no.. once again.
I'd found you, something told me to stay
i gave in to selfish ways
And how i miss someone to hold when hope begins to fade.

10/24/2008 08:07:00 AM

I'm love-sick somewhere tonight
I'm love-sick somewhere tonight
I don't need writing on the wall
I've felt it for so long
Am I even on your mind
Or are you now in...

[Chorus]
Someone else's eyes
Someone else's arms
Someone else's obvious moves
I'm a jealous guy
I hear people talk
And it isn't hard to believe
I think you cheated on me

I've been this love-sick before
I've felt just like this before
There was another just like you
I loved her for so long
But I had poison on my mind
And I drove her into...

[Chorus]
Someone else's eyes
Someone else's arms
Someone else's obvious moves
I'm a jealous guy
I hear people talk
And it isn't hard to believe
I think she cheated on me

[Bridge]
I said I've had this sense before
But I left an open door
For this to walk into my life
And maybe I suspect too much
But it's just hard for me to trust
When I'm all wound up inside
I just drive you off and into...

[Chorus]

Someone else's eyes
Someone else's arms
Someone else's obvious moves

I'm a jealous guy
I hear people talk
And it isn't hard to believe
I was never easy to please
And I think you cheated on me

10/22/2008 10:51:00 PM

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

You entered: khairul anwar
There are 12 letters in your name.
Those 12 letters total to 56
There are 5 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 11

The characteristics of #11 are: High spiritual plane, intuitive, illumination, idealist, a dreamer.

The expression or destiny for #11:
Your Expression number is 11. The number 11 is the first of the master numbers. It is associated with idealistic concepts and rather spiritual issues. Accordingly, it is a number with potentials that are somewhat more difficult to live up to. You have the capacity to be inspirational, and the ability to lead merely by your own example. An inborn inner strength and awareness can make you an excellent teacher, social worker, philosopher, or advisor. No matter what area of work you pursue, you are very aware and sensitive to the highest sense of your environment. Your intuition is very strong; in fact, many psychic people and those involved in occult studies have the number 11 expression. You possess a good mind with keen analytical ability. Because of this you can probably succeed in most lines of work, however, you will do better and be happier outside of the business world. Oddly enough, even here you generally succeed, owing to your often original and unusual approach. Nonetheless, you are more content working with your ideals, rather than dollars and cents.

The positive aspect of the number 11 expression is an always idealistic attitude. Your thinking is long term, and you are able to grasp the far-reaching effects of actions and plans. You are disappointed by the shortsighted views of many of your contemporaries. You are deeply concerned and supportive of art, music, or of beauty in any form.

The negative attitudes associated with the number 11 expression include a continuous sense of nervous tension; you may be too sensitive and temperamental. You tend to dream a lot and may be more of a dreamer than a doer. Fantasy and reality sometimes become intermingled and you are sometimes very impractical. You tend to want to spread the illumination of your knowledge to others irrespective of their desire or need.

Your Soul Urge number is: 6

A Soul Urge number of 6 means:
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.

The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.

If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 5

An Inner Dream number of 5 means:
You dream of being totally free and unrestrained by responsibility. You see yourself conversing and mingling with the natives in many nations, living for adventure and life experiences. You imagine what you might accomplished.

10/21/2008 01:47:00 AM

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
I haven't felt like this in so many moons
You know what I mean?
And we can build through this destruction
As we are standing on our feet
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through

These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what Im holding here in my fire
This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
The words you say to me are unlike anything
That's ever been said
And what you do to me is unlike anything
That's ever been
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
You're gonna have to follow
Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?

10/20/2008 07:02:00 PM

Monday, October 20, 2008

Ive been cleaning my shit up. one thing at a time.
slowly but surely.

Hmm.. Ive undergo my medical checkup today. and I was really hoping for Pes D or E of even F. then after going through the various stages of screening and checks. and pun intended here. they really screen you down to you bare skin. you actually have to pull down your pants. the first was you had to pee on this P.H. stick with some colours, and we were told to pee on it. I was like Foxtrot Uniform Charlie KIlo, i cant pee with all the other dudes waiting in the line. somehow i felt pressurixed. hahaha. but anyway, managed to pee after 10mins of negotiating with my bladder. then i had my blood taken and stuff.

I WAS OFFICiALLY DECLARED UNDER PES A. baik ah -.-.
just what i needed.

Then i went to the dentist, the army dentist. he checked my teeth and asked whether i want to change all the black filling into white ones, which i willingly accepted. WHY NOT! haha. and i'll hate white teeth again. :D

then came the endless IQ questionaires. THEY REALLY ASK YOU STUPID STUFF. like what is your favourite food and such. It states theres no right or wrong answers. waste my time sia. then came the calculations. i did the first 20 questions properly, then the rest, i just hantam all answers 5. haha.

since im in pes A. i think lets just get through with NS and make the best out of it. I ahve to go through it one way or another. So yea. NS, here i come. i was thinking of commando. but me? a commando? if singapore goes to war, confirm lose.

but anyways, met my course manager and had a good talk with her. Shes really understanding and it actually made my day. Her perspective on things are very wide and unbiased. and now, i have to submit in a letter of acknowledgment, that ive talked to her and i will have to attend school regularly and punctually. i guess i ahve to do things by myself now.

i cant seem to fall in love. i want to fall in love again. but i feel empty. like ive run out of the lovel feeling. :( i want someone who makes me rid the person who have been on my mind still. i want someone who'd stand by me. So far. ive yet to find. and i give up finding. i still want to marry an angmoh chick.

One step at a time. I will stand up,
Slowly, but surely, i will walk with my head held high again.
you'll see.

10/18/2008 09:22:00 AM

Saturday, October 18, 2008

things are pretty much fucked up right now. like really.
and one another. i keep getting into trouble and shits.

i might be expelled from school. because ive been coming to school late
and missed school on monday and friday. WTH la. monday i had my bowling competition representing ite. Bloody stupid sia. i think my teacher knows i hate her down to the core. she called my dad and asked him to send an email to support the decision to expel me from school. im going to school this monday and talk to my course manager. and see what can be done.
bloody biased retard teacher.

then i blew my uncle's trust on me. beacuse i returned the car late after borrowing and he had to go to work. and i left my hp inside the car with i went to watch movie outside. and my dad called me up. tsk. that means no more cars. but the thing that bothers me the most is my uncle no longer trust me using his car.

then when we parked the car. we got a summon of 100bucks.i wanted to park the car at the carpark. but my cousin said no need. just park beside the block. !@&*#!(@#&. really wasting my money sia. Sigh. im totally broke summore. sigh.

i think i might fall into depression soon, if another problem crops up. i feel like a bloody fool. like i dont even know how to take care of myself. somebody help me. :(

KHAIRUL ANWAR! CLEAN YOUR SHIT UP.

10/11/2008 04:21:00 AM

Saturday, October 11, 2008

im pretty much torn in between buying a KTM2 or a Vespa.
hmmm it would be a big choice i have to make soon.

anyways, im loving bowling nowadays. ESPECIALLY on fridays.
i'll always message this girl called dyana. he's from SSS.
Singapore Sports School for bowling. and she's one helluva bowler.
and i love talking to her, like shes so mild mannered. she does give me tips too.
and i'd feel embarassed when she does that. like kental siaaaaaaaaaaaa.
but :):)

10/06/2008 09:57:00 PM

Monday, October 6, 2008

it sucks. but thank you.
i had a wonderful time,
i have my closure now,

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