10/20/2008 07:02:00 PM
Monday, October 20, 2008
Ive been cleaning my shit up. one thing at a time.
slowly but surely.
Hmm.. Ive undergo my medical checkup today. and I was really hoping for Pes D or E of even F. then after going through the various stages of screening and checks. and pun intended here. they really screen you down to you bare skin. you actually have to pull down your pants. the first was you had to pee on this P.H. stick with some colours, and we were told to pee on it. I was like Foxtrot Uniform Charlie KIlo, i cant pee with all the other dudes waiting in the line. somehow i felt pressurixed. hahaha. but anyway, managed to pee after 10mins of negotiating with my bladder. then i had my blood taken and stuff.
I WAS OFFICiALLY DECLARED UNDER PES A. baik ah -.-.
just what i needed.
Then i went to the dentist, the army dentist. he checked my teeth and asked whether i want to change all the black filling into white ones, which i willingly accepted. WHY NOT! haha. and i'll hate white teeth again. :D
then came the endless IQ questionaires. THEY REALLY ASK YOU STUPID STUFF. like what is your favourite food and such. It states theres no right or wrong answers. waste my time sia. then came the calculations. i did the first 20 questions properly, then the rest, i just hantam all answers 5. haha.
since im in pes A. i think lets just get through with NS and make the best out of it. I ahve to go through it one way or another. So yea. NS, here i come. i was thinking of commando. but me? a commando? if singapore goes to war, confirm lose.
but anyways, met my course manager and had a good talk with her. Shes really understanding and it actually made my day. Her perspective on things are very wide and unbiased. and now, i have to submit in a letter of acknowledgment, that ive talked to her and i will have to attend school regularly and punctually. i guess i ahve to do things by myself now.
i cant seem to fall in love. i want to fall in love again. but i feel empty. like ive run out of the lovel feeling. :( i want someone who makes me rid the person who have been on my mind still. i want someone who'd stand by me. So far. ive yet to find. and i give up finding. i still want to marry an angmoh chick.
One step at a time. I will stand up,
Slowly, but surely, i will walk with my head held high again.
you'll see.
