7/14/2008 01:12:00 AM
Monday, July 14, 2008
what is it? what was it?
i am feeling contented, satisfied with what im having right now. got load of happy stuffs to share, but right now, i just dont feel like it. spent the saturday with kak emil, ariff, mezzar and adi, watch hell boy at 3.35am. yea. only my and ariff stayed up for the whole show. the rest? ASLEEP. the sound effects were thundering, and the rest steady bopipit in the lala land.
i was playing my computer when my dad came and said, when youre 20, and WORKING! or in NS, go take the bike and trade it in for a bike of your choice. i was like okayyyy. thanks dad. he likes to give this shocking news and money. like all out of the blue, but still thanks. :) XR4 XR4 XR4! cant wait. i guess that will be my ultimate birthday present.
anyways, i am contented with my life now, they things ive got, and getting, new friends, money, time, and almost everything. but it still doesnt feel right. like something's not in place. not there, a void. you know.
i dont really feel like typing out what im feeling right now. how i wish someone would come by, and asks me whats wrong, and help me.
because right now, i feel like a small boy who fell and bruised his knee, sitting down with teary eyes, not wanting to budge by myself, just waiting, and waiting for someone to come by, and attend to his wounds, and help him back up again, and watch him grow, watch him take over his life and be the happiest man in the world, happy, strong and successful.i want to be loved. all over again. and appreciated.
